DeniedRedemption

The rain beats down on this place. Pretend you didn't steal my face. Reverberating footsteps echo as I gaze at the shadows in disgrace. Feeling the sharp pain of crushing realization as you leave for the one you truly love. Were all these emotions misplaced? Clutching this tainted blade as  blood rushes from my veins like the rain that drops from a godless sky. Solace is what you stole from me. Taken and shattered into pieces until I forget how to believe in myself. I can never reclaim what you took. Did you ever truly love me?

If I fall down would you pick me up? Would you shrug off my advances like they didn't matter? Would you help me mask my unbalance with laughter? I tried to sympathize but you make it so hard when all you do is shrug it off. Falling hurts more when you do it alone. I've tried to pretend I don't care,try to turn my heart to stone. You say I'm weak,I say I care too much. We distract ourselves by talking about such and such. The unbalance breaks upon me whenever I'm with you. You're like a drug,horrible for my heart yet I can't live without the numbness. You chalk it up to dumbness,say I don't actually care. I feel insecure with you bu

Cut me down to size. Keep cutting until I begin to realize...that all the words that spill from your mouth are lies. I search for solace but all I find is coldness. Words that bring me closer to my tragic ending. Will you mourn my death?Will you even care? I remember the way I found myself locked in your cold stare. Trapped in a frigid embrace with no way out. All those words fill me with doubt. I gaze at the clock and time slows down in this awkward silence. I know I'll never escape this place,but I never said I wanted to. Sleep well my painful distraction. I watch the rise and fall of your chest and I try to forget those words.

When I'm with you my mind is at ease. My words flow like a piece of paper caught in a gentle breeze. When I'm with her,ease is unattainable. My words are forced and the breeze would cut my lungs. When I'm with you,you bring me to my knees praying that this will never end. When I'm with her,I fall to my knees cursing this evil trend. When I'm with you,one kiss lingers for days. When I'm with her,a kiss lingers inside a hateful daze. When I'm with you I can show my true embrace. When I'm with her all I know is conceit,without a trace...of remorse. Your love is like arrows piercing my heart. Her love is like a knife spilling red hatre

Why does that word drop with ice when you say it? A word like that should not carry so many cold intentions. An icy cold that freezes my words before they hit the air. Time and time I find myself locked in your fridgid stare. It is not a word of hate that you say. You call us "just friends" and you ruin my day. There is nothing I can do. If only I could convince you. That after all we've been through that we are so much more. I cherish this but it wears on my ego. That all of my advances mean nothing to you. You take my sympathy only when you need it. You acknowledge my feelings only when it suits your mood. I want every moment,f

When I gaze at the ceiling while lying on your bedroom floor. Watching you sleep helps me forget that anything exists beyond your door. Words are never needed but I say them anyway. You would give me a loving look to get me through the day. Sometimes we both fall deeper into this silence. I sink into your warm embrace.The way you kiss me makes my pulse race. I wish that we'd never have to leave this place.But I know that we'll have to wake up in the morning. This moment of peace is fleeting at best.It will fade in the night just like all the rest. When we wake up I'll try to charm you with my words.Your smile will pluck at the chords.

The Winterboy's smile is as cold as his namesake. So fridgid it almost seems fake. But the love that he shows you is real. Will you let him in your heart to feel...his numbing embrace? His face is as white as the snow he treads through,and just as beautiful. Eyes that reflect in your's like snowflakes falling on this quiet night. He moves most gracefully in his own element. You watch him from your window and begin to lament...the decision you made to lock your heart and keep him out. Some would call his icy stare foreboding. You look into his eyes and see a fire extiguished long ago. Sometimes you wonder why he gave up on love. Hi

People always leave.It is the flow of life. As disobediant as the edge of a knife. As I say these words I think of you and how you left me feeling blue. I think of all the foolish things I said,and how you still constantly run through my head. Sometimes I wish this all would end...so I no longer suffer through this betrayel. I sink into this depression,praying for regression back to the   days when we were one. When we used to lay under the sun waiting for night to come. Then we both would stare at the stars and talk about our self-inflicted scars.The air was cold but we never cared. The thought of leaving made us both scared. I

You say this will change everything but I disagree. If I could only find a way to make you see. Your beauty still captivates me as much as it did the day we met. I get lost in your eyes. Pools of green that carry sadness after the change. I try to think of words but nothing seems to come. Change is constant,like clay it molds to any situation. Sorrow is then crafted from this clay. When I feel the stress I think about that day. That instant where you said everything's different. I ask what's going on but you won't open your eyes to see that I've been here all along. You refuse to lower your wall. After all we've been through you

Do you recognize these lyrics as they stream from the speakers? The first time we heard this we were in the car and so in love. No we're falling apart. Like a board game I want to go back to start. That may seem childish but that's one of the things you used to love about me. I stare at you from across the room and start to feel the stress. I watch you move hypnotically in a stunning red dress. We distract ourselves with faceless strangers and never make eye contact. I know I won't leave here tonight with my pride intact,but at least I'll leave with you. Then we hear our song and blue eyes lock with green. Everyone else fades away a